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[msss]

I wonder where all this is heading. Well, that's not precisely true. I have a fairly good idea where some of this is heading. Maybe I should explain what "this" is. I seem to have been seeing a _lot_ of Will lately. Let's see. Movie the weekend before last. Lunches. Karate. Phone calls. Emails. Movie on Saturday. Playing pool till 2 am and then both of us staying over in North Carlton. This is all fine and good, except for my previously mentioned lack of inclination towards relationships. Which yes, he does know about. But seriously, I'm not acting like it. I've always been a flirt. This has not changed. And I'm leaving the country in about 7 months, for at least a year. I don't really want to twist the guy's heart through a wringer for fun, no matter what Alex says would be good for me. (And I can't imagine why torturing someone like that _would_ be good for me, but then Alex has some strange attitudes, backed up by the supreme confidence of the headshrink's child.) But I made a resolution yesterday to take down those barriers that I'd put up. So maybe I shouldn't rule it out, out of hand. *sigh* Guys are just trouble. Oh, and I finally stopped fighting the issue. I believe in God. Yes, the Christian one. Even if I can't explain why and it makes no sense. I still do. Now I'll just have to deal with it.

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Sometimes you just have to go with the flow.

[deathpixie]

As long as Will is 100% clear that it isn't a permanent relationship - and he sounds like he is - why not just enjoy yourselves while you have the opportunity? Cuddle buddies, or something like that. *grins* Go out, have fun, as long as you establish certain ground rules, there's no reason why you can't both get something out of it. *noogies* Relax and enjoy yourself for once. ;)

Re: Sometimes you just have to go with the flow.

[msss.livejournal.com]

The problem is that I'm not sure he's clear. Hell, I'm not all that clear. So asking him to be is probably a bit much. But anyway, he's away for a few days. So I have some thinking time, anyway.